Memory Lane
Posted July 4, 2006 11:00 AM
Author Elder Rage www.ElderRage.com
Host Coping With Caregiving Radio Show www.wsRadio.com/CopingWithCaregiving
After moving recently and throwing out so many things I no longer need, yesterday I suddenly took a break as I found myself deep down memory lane--leafing through numerous photo albums and scrapbooks I had kept as a child and young adult.
I was surprised by how many people I don't even remember now, but also warmed by how many special people have come in and out of my life--and how many I still keep in touch with.
I even found my Junior Prom corsage that high school heart-throb Bob gave me and wondered if I could find out what he is doing now through Classmates or the Internet--but darn, no luck. Then I found stacks of love letters and wondered what my life would have been like if I had married John and moved to Washington DC.
I couldn't help pondering how different my life would have been had I gone to Stanford, where I had been accepted, instead of to the private photography & cinematography college in Santa Barbara, which led me to my long career in the television business. No, I think I did make the right decisions, but ohhh, what if I hadn't sold my first home--which is worth a fortune now!
The story of each of our lives is a series of decisions we made, forks in the road we took, and no amount of pondering the "what if's?" can change where we are right now. Regret is only helpful if we learn from our mistakes and make better decisions for the future.
But what about elderly people facing the end of their lives, who have regrets and ponder the "shoulda, coulda, woulda's" -- but who don't have the opportunity to correct mistakes and do better next time? And what about those with dementia, whose memories are fading?
As caregivers, we can help our elders release some of these emotions by letting them talk about the old days and listen to their many stories of triumph and tragedy with interest, even if we have already heard them numerous times--and even if the facts have become somewhat distorted.
A colleague and friend of mine, Jeff Mettais (former Executive VP of The Baby Einstein Company), is Co-founder and President of The Memory Lane Company, which has videos, music CDs and memory books to help stimulate and entertain people with memory loss. Their goal is to help people preserve connections with life and family and to encourage communication: http://www.memorylanemedia.com
And... I hope that when the reminiscing begins, you will discretely turn on a tape recorder--because someday--you may be longing to hear your loved one's stories again. I can't tell you how much I wish I had recorded my parents' fondest memories--and yes, I would have to say that is one of my biggest regrets.
Author Elder Rage www.ElderRage.com
Host Coping With Caregiving Radio Show www.wsRadio.com/CopingWithCaregiving
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Hey there--hi Bob! I know! -- it is so darn hard not to think of what may be ahead, but you know, everyone leaves the party someday--so all we can do is ENJOY each day. After 18 months of breast cancer treatments and now being given an 80% chance of survival, I have gotten much better at "living in the now" and striving to focus on all I am grateful for TODAY--but it really takes practice.
As soon as I notice my mind going down ANY negative path and projecting toward the “what if’sâ€, I yell, "cancel!" and then I grab my list of gratitude’s (which I keep handy everywhere and read the first thing when I wake up) and I read them over and over until I get back to positive thinking. (Oprah swears by this method.) When there is a problem (daily!), I plot the steps needed to solve it, but I am very aware of focusing my mind on a positive outcome. Some days I am very successful at this, and other days (when stress upon stress occurs) it is more difficult to accomplish—but always my goal.
I have been going through more boxes of mementos this weekend and reading the most lovely sentiments in letters and greeting cards--trying hard not to get too melancholy--focusing instead on being thankful I have been blessed with so many wonderful people who have touched and influenced my life.
Yes, Jacquelyn, Memory lane is so important. It can be so very sad also and can bring about depressing times. I wish I had a tape recorder years ago when my Grandparents talked.
Your book and your emails have boosted me up in dealing with Mom so many times. She does distort memories. I keep reminding myself of ways you dealt with your parents.
I started books on my ancesters including my parents and my life. I just found some records I have been looking for about a year now today.
I have to send copies to my cousin and Uncle.
Mom promised to write her own history down as she remembers it to have been. I really do want it in her words.
Thanks again.
I was my Grandmother's caretaker during the last two years of her life. I had so much time to ask her questions about the 'old' days and yet, thinking back, I learned so little. I wish I had talked to her more. She could have shared so much.
Now I'm thinking of my 'old' days and everything lost during multiple moves. In my teenage years, the Beatle's were the in group. Where is that scrapbook? Gone like so many other precious things I tried to keep.
There is good in these painful memories. I've begun writing my story for my children. If I had kept a journal it would have been so helpful since my memory isn't what it used to be. But everyday, faithfully, I diligently plod on, writing my story as a keepsake for them. I hope they do the same for their children because when your time is up and your story hasn't been told, it's lost forever.
Very touching article Jacqueline. I often find myself reminiscing about times past and fateful decisions during annual trips back to my home town in upstate New York. Next time I'll take your advice and bring that tape recorder along for family and friends!
Jeff
You know, this comes at such an opportune time for me to tell you how I was given a gift of being able to visit my childhood home a few weeks ago. My grandparents pretty much raised me and the cemetery where they are buried is near their old homestead. My husband and I visited the grave one day and drove down the street past the house. A man was tending his flowers out front and my husband told me I should stop. I was timid about it but I did. I told the man that I grew up in that house, and do you know he invited us in? It was a trip back in time and I kept grabbing my heart and being fe clempft all the way through each room. How beautiful a gift for someone, a stranger to give, to be able to go back in time, a time when things were so simple and lovely. To open the cellar door and see the old cabinets where my grandmother put up preserves, my old teeny bedroom, the room where my grandmother died suddenly,I alone with her, all the memories...I sent him a thank you and a copy of a deed from 1893 with the previous owner's name. I was truly blessed on that day. I have written a blog for my children so that they will have my memories also.
Hi Again Jacqueline
Your comments about "memory lane" are very timely. Myh wife and I just celebrated our 50th wedding anniversary and hauled out photos covering the last 5 decades. Very moving and satisfying...except it makes one think. In the process, we uncovered pictures of my parent's 50th celebration. It was a wonderful event, but consider this: 23 years later, dad is gone 17 years and mom clings to her dementia laden life at 92 years of age in the nursing home. She cannot even remember her husband and is total care. Today, we're whole and can celebrate life, but we are next in line, aren't we? Will dementia rob us of our own life memories?
While I'm at it, let me remind your readers about your radio interview of me about my book last May. Here are the details:
"Dementia Diary, A Caregiver’s Journal," on Jacqueline Marcell's Internet radio program "Coping with Caregiving" (Segment 2).
Listen free-on-demand via Windows Media Player or Real Player--free downloads available (See "How To Listen,†at the top of the Coping with Caregiving website). Here is the link to the website where the interview can be found: http://tinyurl.com/n3k9v
Mr. Tell’s website is: http://www.dementia-diary.com
Many thanks.
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